i don't want to do this anymore

This morning around 4am i woke up to excruciating pain in my entire right mid back.  I jumped (all right, rolled) out of bed and tried to work it out thinking I slept funny and it was just sore.  But it wouldn't stop.  I was confused and even felt my tummy to see if it was just a really really bad contraction. It wasn't.  And then after what seemed like an eternity, it released.  It just stopped. The pain was gone.  Didn't leave any soreness, except for every now and then when I move just right.

My conclusion is that it was a spasm.  I have never experienced any mid back troubles. But my mid back was spasming this morning.  All I can conclude is that I slept in a very bad position.

It hurt a lot and I don't want to do that again. 

So after I went to the bathroom (again) I tentatively sat on my bed, scared to lay down again.  Was my back out?

I already have to get up to use the bathroom 2-3 times a night.  I have trouble going back to sleep around 5am and usually end up getting up for the day.

Why oh why oh why ?

In the end I laid down on my other side to see if I could sleep some more.  I was able to, and no more spasming.  Until tomorrow night?

Perhaps I overdid it yesterday at my baby shower?  After I got home from a beautiful pristine, in party shape, home I took one look at my home and started straightening it.  Baby E likes to carry little things from here to there and leaves them all over the floor.  The Kitchen needs to be cleaned/swept/straightened.  so I worked on that until the kids got home.  Then after a while they helped me bring everything in from the shower and I proceeded to put it all away and organize it.  I think it was carrying all of those diapers that did it.  That and getting on the floor to organize things. 

So probably my fault.  I just hope it never never ever happens again. :(  That was so painful.

this week

This week I have a lot to look forward to.

Doctors appointment on Tuesday.

Baby shower on Wednesday.

35 weeks on Wednesday.

 Last ultrasound on Thursday.

Please pray with me that baby A is head down.

 On another note I've discovered that when I over do it, it's unbearable. I get tired and achey and just want to be done and have babies. However, when I take it somewhat easy life is bearable and I feel like I can do a few more weeks. That was a hard lesson to learn but I'm glad I learned it now.

I'm 34.5 weeks so about 2.5 - 3.5 or so more weeks to go.

letters...

Dear 34 weeks,
Its good to see you.  It will be even better to see you go.

Dear 37 weeks,
You can't get here fast enough.

Dear snoring,
I will be very happy when you go away.  I've never quite experienced you like this before.

Dear bed,
Ours is a love hate relationship.  You are very comfortable to lay in.  I just wish I didn't have to get up 3 times a night to use the bathroom. 

Dear Air Conditioning,
Oh how you taunt me.  You start out so cool and refreshing.  You feel good and comfy.  Then around the 2nd trip to the bathroom I can't seem to cool off enough to go back to sleep.  I can't turn you on again because you are freezing the rest of the family.

Dear Baby E,
You are having a hard time adjusting to the girls being back at school.  You wander around looking a bit lost. You have discovered the kitchen cupboards and all of the fun toys inside. Mom has discovered that she needs more cupboard latches.  You don't like that all of a sudden all of the doors are shut thus corralling you into a certain space.  You like to cry at the slightest thing not going your way.  That is not like my normal happy little guy.  Won't you come cuddle with your mommy?  I'm sorry that I can't play with you as much as the girls did.  Please get used to our new life during the school year soon. I don't think I can take much more of this.

Dear girls,
You are such a big help.  You don't whine much and I appreciate that.  Thank you for being so patient with me and doing your best to help out.  I'm happy that you are very excited for the new babies.

Dear body,
I know. I know you are worn down. I feel that you are reaching your limits. I am trying to take it easy on you. Yesterday you helped me clean the kitchen and do 1 load of laundry.  Those 2 things took all day.  Thank you for hanging tough.  Just a few more weeks and we'll be there.  And then we'll be testing new limits!

Dear Hubby,
Thank you for your patience.  Thank you for your help.  Thank you for cleaning the bathroom. Thank you for making dinner.  Thank you for everything you do to make this pregnancy bearable.  I really really really really appreciate everything. I love you.

These are the ramblings that go on inside my head around 4 am.  Yesterday it was at 3am. 

Pictures from our vacation

This is the Pacific City version of 'Haystack Rock'. The large hill to the left is called Cape Kiwanda. Notice that even though its a beautiful day (yes, in the middle of the week, but in July!) the beach looks fairly deserted.

This was a gorgeous day. the girls got down to their swimsuits

  and despite the cold ocean, played and played in and out of the water. This is the day I sunburned my knees. OUCH!

Baby E had fun too! I even caught him eating sand at one point. However, after quickly spitting it out, I don't think I caught him doing it again.

Baby E and daddy spend a lot of time like this on the beach. They are both conked out. Baby E is covered mostly by the towel to prevent sunburn.

We took one day and traveled up the coast a bit. This is one of the lookouts.

  We stopped at Cape Mears (as blogged about below) and hiked down to the lighthouse. This is Baby E getting a ride. His hair is so cute here! We gave him a buzz last week and I miss the blond blond hair!

And here you go. A picture of me at 28 weeks pregnant with twins. I'm about the same size as I was full term with Baby E.

I went to the doctor today for a checkup and she said I had grown by 3.5 cm. I asked her if this was a regular pregnancy where that would put me. She said it would mean I had about 12 lbs of baby in there and she would be panicking and thinking about an early induction!

At my ultrasound last week they estimated weights around 3lbs 9oz and 3lbs 7oz. This is +/- 1 lb so not really an accurate measurement. However, it does show that the babies have grown since the last ultrasound which is the most important fact.